Autism, Life and Learning

So this couple weeks I haven't had any internet but I have a kinda packed couple weeks. I had done volenteered for CAMHS and Young Devon, then I started my university module- Yay 😀. Last week I helped CAMHS again and altered my training plan. I don't mean a small change I mean everything, I have changed everything from the training on land to the training on the water. It's only going to get harder for me 😱😜. Also on Monday I got my complete reasults for my last module and I PASSED!! YAY!🎉 Anyway I know that pretty much everyone that gets taught that autistics don't like change. Whlist this is kinda true it is also worng as most just need time to adjust that could be seconds to months, but everyone else need time to adjust but they can adjust on the fly as it were we can't or we can but not well...😞. It also help if we want the change so with my training I have gone from around an hour on land to around 3 hours that is a big change, but I know to be competive...

Before I talk too much. This is the new look for the blog I know it's bright but I wanted it to be colourful, I'm sorry if I have burned anyones eyeballs 😉. I have tried to copy colours from actual geckos. So everything has kinda  been geckofied. I have added some more bits around, so if you can see if you can find all of the bits that have changed.   I have now finished my End of Module Assessment- Hooray. I will send it off for marking tomorrow. If I pass I can go to the next module. The next module is about psychology, it's good to actually have a module about psychology in a psychology degree. Anyway rather than just talk about that little update I thought I would talk about how to talk to someone one the spectrum. To me it's one of the funniest and annoying things. I remember I was in year 5, so way before I was diagnosed as autistic, it was just before the Easter holidays. I was on a school trip with the rest of the year, me and some of my classmates and ...

This is one I really wanted to talk about but I wanted to research it first, there is literally nothing on it and yet me and some of my friends deal with this. It has no name- or at least one I can find.  I call it a one day depression. This happens roughly after a meltdown for a day or the day after a meltdown. To me it drops my mood slightly, I also feel more anxious and that affects other things which may or may not start another meltdown. If that happens then  more and more meltdown happen, so sleep is the best answer and start from where we can process. If it isn't going in a vicious circle, then you just feel down, more anxious like I have already said. I also shut people off and don't want to talk. So it  is like going back to a basic mode where everybody looks at you where they know something is wrong with you, what isn't nice but you can't do anything. I'm lucky that I adapt to situations and can mimic personalities so people don't know what happens ...

First a quick catch up I passed my TMA04 which is good. I have just TMA05  to do and my assessments, an exam through course work, for this module. I'm just getting ready to go back to Nottingham  and whilst training I may have caught a bit of sun stroke- but I can't stroke the sun because apparently it 'too hot’  .  This one is going to be an odd one. This post is going to be how some people on the spectrum don't feel like they are human, or should I say they don't feel like homo sapiens. There are two main ways to look at this.  1) They feel like they can do everything better then the standard homo sapiens because their 'gifts' give them an unusual amount of input to the world around them. I kinda fall in this category with my 'gifts' I can mimic and adapt to virtually any situation or environment given to me with near precision hence the nickname Gecko. From this things like adverts or sublimate messages don't work on me because they b...

Well, I had a few good days and spent time with people I trust, sorry everyone but I don't have friends, best you get though. I know that I look at life differently, I guess that's with most if not everyone who is autistic, whether that be in my head, inside a rainbow- pun intended or just blurred with music with colourful lights. Some autistics, including myself, will never really understand people and how to cross the road safety (thank you Toyota Prius driver). However, there are some things that I find that I really understand like physics, mathematics even languages ( to a point). All these have one main thing in common; all these have patterns. So I'm guessing here but other people with autism, Aspergers, ASD or whatever label you want to call it. If we find a pattern to life we can be people and have a life, I think.   . These are things I have always understood in some ways but I have other issues which confuse a lot of things. So I didn't realise how much th...

I handed my first assignment yesterday. I think it was all correct. Next chapter now I had a quick look at it and my idea of how society get made and remade really needs to change. I also looked at the assessment it's an extended version of the first. Let's hope I've answered the first correct or I might be able on the wrong foot, I'm not sure it will be I guess its my right foot. Although could be and really bad foot and start with a hand.  The more I study introduction to social sciences the more I realise that most people with autism are in built with the idea that we are part of society but the patterns that everyone does are so predictable- in the larger cogs of society. That's why we watch people. Most of us like patterns- I'm more partial to pretty lights.  Even so the patterns are there we notice them more or they bother us more, that bit I'm not too sure about. But we see thing in such different ways that we make everything 3-Dementional it o...

Note to anyone that reads this- I take most things literary so you can laugh at what you read. I have to.  I got all the things to study my course- Psychology BSc (Hons), near Christmas time so it was like a Christmas present from the Open University. When my Course had officially started read the chapter I needed to and TMA1 over and over and made a plan even before the Module Introduction. As soon as I went to the introduction I realised everything was ahead by a bit well... a lot- all three parts don't to the word (roughly) just needed to type it up. When it got to typing up, I realised that I had encrypted my assignment- thanks Autism. This meant I had to unencrypt it word by word hoping it made sense. Some how it did but the word count was lagging but at least it made sense. So far the main issue I have with the course is how society is made and remade- my first idea is buildings get knocked down and new ones get put in their place apparently not as simple as that. No...