Autism, Life and Learning

I know this is meant to be graphic, although I will try and take some out this is a disclaimer that there may be part find either disturbing or upsetting. Although I don’t know emotions I know that one 😃. Sudden changes these are hard for everyone even neurotypicals. I will try and do some of these sudden changes as there are a lot of them. I am going to cover around four of them. These will be death, break ups in a relationship, someone going to hospital and a general sudden change.   From this I will talk more about the affects because people don’t want to know about things like this. A general sudden change. This is where something is out of someone’s control usually. To someone on the spectrum most of us need control and order in some way. So, anything that throws us out of that order is sudden. This can lead to things like meltdown, overloads and physical abuse to other people- sorry. These are the general things that people know happen. What is happening inside m...

This is an odd set of curcumstances that I would call a slow change, as I have to not be able to notice somethig is happening. This is really hard espcially when I can see things before they happen.  Slow changes often take months to happen. Although I detest change I don't mind these- that much. Just so everyone knows how change feels to me and how it affects me. Change feels like something  is missing, but this feeling lingers for months, somethimes years, the best way to describe it is that it's like  a scratch which you want to scratch but can't for month even years. Then add the feeling like your insides are made of lead and it feels like its draging down making every breathe harder. So that it feels like to me. If it is a slow change and I notice it then this feeling just gets dragged out untl the change has finshed then I just go through it again. I don't actively look for changes. As I live in a choas theory relatity so it needs four things. Linear time, paral...