Slow Changes
This is an odd set of curcumstances that I would call a slow change, as I have to not be able to notice somethig is happening. This is really hard espcially when I can see things before they happen. Slow changes often take months to happen. Although I detest change I don't mind these- that much. Just so everyone knows how change feels to me and how it affects me. Change feels like something is missing, but this feeling lingers for months, somethimes years, the best way to describe it is that it's like a scratch which you want to scratch but can't for month even years. Then add the feeling like your insides are made of lead and it feels like its draging down making every breathe harder. So that it feels like to me. If it is a slow change and I notice it then this feeling just gets dragged out untl the change has finshed then I just go through it again. I don't actively look for changes. As I live in a choas theory relatity so it needs four things. Linear time, paral...