Slow Changes

This is an odd set of curcumstances that I would call a slow change, as I have to not be able to notice somethig is happening. This is really hard espcially when I can see things before they happen.  Slow changes often take months to happen. Although I detest change I don't mind these- that much. Just so everyone knows how change feels to me and how it affects me.

Change feels like something  is missing, but this feeling lingers for months, somethimes years, the best way to describe it is that it's like  a scratch which you want to scratch but can't for month even years. Then add the feeling like your insides are made of lead and it feels like its draging down making every breathe harder. So that it feels like to me.

If it is a slow change and I notice it then this feeling just gets dragged out untl the change has finshed then I just go through it again. I don't actively look for changes. As I live in a choas theory relatity so it needs four things. Linear time, parallel unlinear time, a constant and flux. I know this sounds hard to get your head around. To make it easier just focus on one of them- a constant. That is the point in which we all live in, to me the flux and the unlinear time get mixed so this changes the constant. So if something does change, even if it is slow this changes my view of the world. I will talk about living in choas reality after all this.  So if people are still a little stuck. If you move even the smallest thing in my environment, I natrually asumme the litteral worse.

So coming back to the subject. Slow changes are odd because they are meant to be stuble but to some on the spectrum they can really hinder them as its a slower change which isn't has helpful to some.

Then next one is about will be about sudden change. Which I will put on here at any time.  ;-)